By: Darcy Mears, Children’s Ministry Coordinator
I have a new driver at my house. At 8 AM on her 15th birthday, her Dad drove her to the DMV and by 8:30 AM she drove out for about 10 minutes…then reality set in. It was fun AND a little scary. Thrilling AND a little scary.
I remember this same craving for the next new adventure or experience while I was growing up. I remember the dichotomy of butterflies AND nausea in my stomach on the first day of Middle School and High School. I remember the confidence and anxiety that occupied equal parts of me for my first Varsity volleyball game or the stage performance when I opened the show with the first words and closed it with the last.
Now that I am a grownup, I am much better at tempering my expectations. Past experiences have taught me what will probably happen and how to deal with whatever runs into the road. I can now easily take the wheel and push the blinker, press the pedals and pump the gas.
Yet at times, I miss the butterflies and anxiety that can come with expectation without actually holding the wheel. You guessed it; I am starting to realize that always sitting in the driver’s seat can be mundane and flat. I tend to drive the same places and do the same things because I know the way and it is safe. In doing so, I close the door on fresh and possibly audacious experiences in my life. I long for that willingness and exciting freedom of allowing someone else to drive so I can just enjoy and be thrilled by the ride.
So, I am setting out to embrace the unknown and ride in the passenger seat. Through prayer, I hope to learn something new about myself, my faith, and seek a new understanding, trusting that God will take me where I need to go while I sit back and revel in the journey. I want to find a bold new way to accept God’s love and grace in my soul and love Him back.
“I pray that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in his holy people, and his incomparably great power for us who believe.” Ephesians 1:18 -19